The Snapping Point
Its been a few days of complete disorientation...... a strange numbness.
Time moving by the speed of a snail.
Drifting in and out of sleep (strange considering me)!
No interest in eating anything (extremely strange considering me)!
No interest in anything (well, you get the drift right)
The day starts and goes on and on and on
And here I go through the motions, without feeling a thing
The good part - No bad, hurt, angry or negative emotions
The bad part - No good, warm or happy emotions either
The ugly part - No logical explanation for any of it
"Logic" has been one of my best friends. I have used it as a shield against my other not-so-great friend called "feelings". But oh boy has it abandoned me this time
Probably for the good. I admit that I have been reckless. Recklessly hanging out with "feelings" for quite some time now. Overestimating my strength in "logic".
Putting my emotions to test time and again by choosing to trust people, feeling for them, connecting with them, and even caring for them...... exactly the stunts NOT to be performed by people with a vulnerable soul. Yet I did, boy what stunts did I pull..... But only till I reached the snapping point (my take on the Tipping Point, get it? no? whatever)
Something is broken, don't know what. So much so that I can't even figure out that at which exact moment did I snap. I can't trace back the exact trigger of this gloom. Was it one incident? Or some person? Or was it a whole lot than that, accumulated over days, years, decades..... And one can't find a solution when the question itself is not known.
And now that most of my strength n resolve n patience has given up on me.... I realize something.... Surprise surprise..... I am not as brave as I felt I was, and that sucks.... big time
Snapped for good this time. Till I figure out a way to come back..... IF I figure out a way to come back.... I am stuck in this time loop
Abandoned by logic, and hurt by feelings
P.S. I am not drunk, trust me :)
Time moving by the speed of a snail.
Drifting in and out of sleep (strange considering me)!
No interest in eating anything (extremely strange considering me)!
No interest in anything (well, you get the drift right)
The day starts and goes on and on and on
And here I go through the motions, without feeling a thing
The good part - No bad, hurt, angry or negative emotions
The bad part - No good, warm or happy emotions either
The ugly part - No logical explanation for any of it
"Logic" has been one of my best friends. I have used it as a shield against my other not-so-great friend called "feelings". But oh boy has it abandoned me this time
Probably for the good. I admit that I have been reckless. Recklessly hanging out with "feelings" for quite some time now. Overestimating my strength in "logic".
Putting my emotions to test time and again by choosing to trust people, feeling for them, connecting with them, and even caring for them...... exactly the stunts NOT to be performed by people with a vulnerable soul. Yet I did, boy what stunts did I pull..... But only till I reached the snapping point (my take on the Tipping Point, get it? no? whatever)
Something is broken, don't know what. So much so that I can't even figure out that at which exact moment did I snap. I can't trace back the exact trigger of this gloom. Was it one incident? Or some person? Or was it a whole lot than that, accumulated over days, years, decades..... And one can't find a solution when the question itself is not known.
And now that most of my strength n resolve n patience has given up on me.... I realize something.... Surprise surprise..... I am not as brave as I felt I was, and that sucks.... big time
Snapped for good this time. Till I figure out a way to come back..... IF I figure out a way to come back.... I am stuck in this time loop
Abandoned by logic, and hurt by feelings
P.S. I am not drunk, trust me :)
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