Walking towards an uncluttered mind......

When everything starts getting out of my hands, and I feel I cant take things anymore, all I do is start walking..... Without really thinking where I go, or how much I walk. 

Walking between hordes of strangers, yet being able to be alone.... I keep looking around to check if someone I love is following me. Almost always, there is no one, and this loneliness is strangely welcomed..... The feeling that I am on my own....

A long road, with no destination (and a switched off phone) is the best combination to really bring up all the topics I have been avoiding to even think of. Its the best time to really fight off all those uneasy feelings....to take some long overdue decisions. And funnily, I always end up reaching a more or less similar conclusion at the end of every walk................... "Why the hell am I taking things so seriously? Let go you drama queen and start enjoying" ;)

But today......... it was a good 3kms and something, but the chaos in my head did not diffuse.... and at the end of it, I was just blank. Whatever happened to the reassuring thought of letting go :(

Boy have I messed up too bad this time....  Time to walk some more....